I’m still dumbfounded. I don’t understand the nature of a human being. You say one thing then do another. I guess I’m guilty of the same thing, I just don’t see when I’m doing it to others.
If I’ve done this to you, made you feel like you don’t matter, then I’m so very sorry.
I guess with heartache comes clarity… at least soon after you realize the extent of the heartache.
My head and heart are at war. Stupid heart. Just surrender.
I’m guessing the reason my heartache is so terrible is because it’s mixed with other terrible things that have happened over the past couple months. I don’t know. Either way I’m tired of it. I don’t think I can take one more second of it. I’m surrendering everything. I give up thinking that you feel the same as me. I’m done creating these scenarios in my head waiting for the day you realize what you’ve thrown away.
If all I am to you is a courtesy wave then that’s all you are to me. Nothing else.
Now get out of my head and let me be.