Monthly Archives: May 2011

Rant n Rave


In the months/weeks to come I will be living in a completely different place surrounded by so many different people. Yiiikes. I’m scared. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m happy. And there is still a little bitty part of me that wants to stay where I am because it’s comfortable! And oh boy have I learned a lot about myself in the past 6 months.

The day I left Austin I could do nothing but think of how to find my way back, seeing what I can accomplish in 6 months has opened my eyes and heart to seek bigger and better things. In addition to wanting to travel anywhere and everywhere I would LOVE LOVE LOOOOVE to spend some time in other countries teaching and getting to know other cultures. Not just seeing them but living them. Surround myself and become it. I have a lot of ground to cover in the near future!

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Butterflies, birds, bee’s and trees


How do you know

When to let go… ew, that sounds so cheesy.

Holding onto something that clearly doesn’t want to be held onto.

Being honest hasn’t gotten me too far lately. In fact I can’t help but feel that it’s set me back.

I opened up a door when I should’ve just cracked open a window. Too much too fast.

Is it normal to want someone to fight for me? I feel like that is how most relationships are started anyways right?

Maybe I don’t know anything. Maybe these words are too shallow for anyone to see let alone hear. I’m just talking out loud to myself anyways 🙂


Seems to be…


appropriate for a night as beautiful as this. If only I could articulate my words as beautifully as Rumi does.

“I am your moon and your moonlight too
I am your flower garden and your water too
I have come all this way, eager for you
Without shoes or shawl
I want you to laugh
To kill all your worries
To love you
To nourish you.”
-Rumi



“I am color…blind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am
taffy stuck, tongue tied
Stuttered shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am…fine
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding
I am
colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am…fine
I am…. fine
I am fine”

Such a perfectly written song. Beautifully redundant!


Random spats of silly emotions


I think I’ve been imagining things lately. Like feelings and people. How silly of me.

Thought I had more to say tonight. I guess not.

School is almost over, but not for long. I begin a summer mini on the 16th, then I’m off to San Marcos!

I guess I’m just one of those girls who will only be understood by a handful of people. I’m too passionate and intense for most. I appreciate those who have stuck with me even through my craziness and my ups and downs.

I’ve been learning a growing a lot lately. As much as I love learning from my experiences I hate being hurt…. but who doesn’t hate that?!

Hhhmm. I’m making things happen all around me and while I can’t yet see the outcome I know that it will be exactly what I decide it to be. Next thing is to work on these silly emotions that I’ve been dealing with lately. I’m learning to think kindly towards all who are in my life and to genuinely love every experience that comes my way!

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Clear blue horizon


I’m about to begin a new chapter in my life and there is nothing like moving to a new city to get a fresh start and a new perspective on things! My friends tell me that I’m a free spirit and I can definitely agree that I am! I love the fact that I will be going to this city only knowing a hand full of people around me and at the same time have my favorite people in the world just 30 min away from me! Staying focused is priority and hopefully I’ll find some fun along the way! I love change, I thrive on it! I can’t wait to start this new adventure 🙂


Your move


If you want me, then take me. Otherwise I’m going to slip right through your fingers and you don’t want to lose me.